SKINNY sleeping beauty

I was going to talk about the benefits of sleep regarding mental health and wellbeing. However, I currently do not have healthy sleep hygiene practices so yea...
I fall asleep every night with my iPod. The content of the podcasts i listen to at night weaves its way into my dreams. This disturbs me. I dream of the make-shift cemeteries along the trail(s) of Mount Everest. I dream of a man in a hand glider guiding some type of large white gang of birds to the birds' winter home. I also dream dreams that i forget by  the time i awake, yet i know they are affecting the quality of my sleep.
I want to sleep. I love the rare morning i wake up feeling rested.
I just can't break away from the "binkies" I've let into my bedtime routine.
I've done a sleep study with more sleep studies in my near future. I feel that I need to do my part to  get better rest.
I want to sleep better (more sleep = better sleep?) to improve my BMI, to help me feel calmer, and to make me remember things better.
I don't like silence. I suppose this is what talk therapy is for.

Drop Weight or Drop Dead: 100 Hundred Days to a Healthier Self

Will Power, My Foot 

These days I have much less will power than I wish I were able to summon. 

I am working on treating myself more kindly as I tend to have unrealistic expectations for myself. I am looking for focus - in all areas of my life.

One thing I LOVE LOVE LOVE is podcasts. I recently heard a Freakonomics podcast about will power, etc. 

Click the link below to read about "temptation bundling" and other  will power related topics. 

http://freakonomics.com/2015/03/13/when-willpower-isnt-enough-a-new-freakonomics-radio-podcast/

My Top Two Favorite Temptation Bundles:

1. Cleaning the bathroom and drinking 

2. Waiting on hold on the phone and watching TV (I HATE talking on the phone, waiting on hold, anything phone call related)

I will find the positive side in everything that I can

I have not posted on a daily basis recently. I am continuing my 100 days of fitness focus, however.

I got a cold over the weekend. This makes me even more tired and more likely to use food to soothe my  discomfort/aches & pains.

The positive side I have seen in getting sick is that
I am eating much less.
I think I am eating less because my congestion cuts off a lot of my olfactory sense so food isn't tasting amazing.

For the most part I work in geriatric nursing rehabilitation. This means that sometimes I  am subjected to a lot of rank smells. (the kind of smell that takes away one's breathe in a BAD way lol) I acknowledge that I lose my appetite some days from the assorted odors at work and that means
I am eating less. 

I am not promoting extreme dieting or condoning low calorie meal plans. 

Four (4) Days Sober

I am 4 or 5 days sober (ice cream)
I feel like I have that binge eating thing they advertise on TV now. Are there pills for binge eating? I feel like pills are not the proper treatment for long term binge eating.

I feel I am going in a new direction - finally

happy fruits

Today I eat pomegranate.
Today I choose happiness.

Self Acceptance

Drop Weight or Drop Dead: 100 Days to a Healthier Self

Self Acceptance

Yesterday after running around like a crazy monkey organizing my living area I decided that I will hard core attempt to accept myself.  I want to celebrate what I have instead of regretting how I got to where I am right now. My life is right now - not when I get a better job or when the weather is better.

I am aiming for the type of self acceptance that is non-cheesy. 

Drop Weight or Drop Dead: 100 Days to a Healthier Self

Which is more important - sleep or exercise?
I was in a groggy state of mind at work today trying to decide if I should take a nap or go swimming after my shift ended. I asked an RN at the nursing home I started at today if taking a nap or going for a swim is better. The nurse said she recommended the exercise because it would give me more energy.

so that is what I did